Poem for my better half - relationship goals

Half slept half dreamy under the quilt

Holding hands and praising the bliss

This cold January night as we lay entwined

My soul surrenders to the melody of your heartbeat

Your tender touch and breath so warm

Seized in your arms with love divine

Your strong embrace healing my soul

The Fragrant essence which leaves me high

Blossomed my heart with those mighty kisses

Untamed and stormy your love so wild

Attached our being with bond so pure

You are my place under the sun

Immortal our love, no storm can perish

This timeless bond! And Blessed we are!.

Post Partum Depression

Constant feeling of fear, guilt, sadness, anxiety, and sudden outburst of crying, lowness and extreme sensitiveness were some of the emotions which I experienced a few days after my delivery. Not suddenly but gradual onset after 10 to 15 days post delivery.

It was the day of extreme pride and joy when I gave birth to my darling baby. He bought along lots of sunshine but some internal turmoil in my body gave rise to post partum depression. Blame it on hormones or some monster inside me but reality is I faced it and still living with some remnants of it.

It is hard, painful and much harder is to make people around you understand your problem. It’s like some constant burden on your shoulder and you are left with no energy or strength to push it away. Why life cannot be simple? Why route to happiness is laden with stones of hardship?

The utmost joyous moment of my life came accompanied with these hellish unknown fears and sadness. My parents, husband as well as in-laws took care of me as much as they can. My husband supported me, but personally I expected something more, I wanted people around me to be more patient and non judgmental. 

Anyways it has been my personal battle and I have to emerge out as a winner for my wellness. It has been almost one year now and with time things are getting better. I have never allowed faith and hope to leave my heart. My baby and his soft touches are there to heal and keep me moving. 

Advice for new moms: – Talk about it. Communicate your feelings. If people understand it well and good and if they don’t, be patient. Hug your baby, be strong, things will always get better. Indulge in any hobby or activity you like even if it is for a shortest available time.

My stress buster is books and songs. I indulge in lot of reading and music whenever I get any time off from the never ending chores a t home.

If living in a nuclear setup strictly allocate some of the baby duties to the father. This way at least you get some time off.

Statutory warning - Do not Google much about it.

Life is indeed full of some whirlwind mix of emotions. In between all the upheavals my son is my knight in armor. I love him to moon and back. No matter how bad my mood is, his smile in any case makes my life joyous.   

A SHORT POEM – 

“Come near me and look into my eyes

Hold my hand and kiss my forehead

I need a hug, some tender reassurance

Wipe my tears, for I have lost all strength

Send my way some twinkling dust

I want to be near you and kiss your smiles

I want to feel your breath and dance to the tunes of your heartbeat

For it makes me feel alive”