My tryst with failures and worries

Life is full of surprises, some happy and some sad. Things which are least expected happens with a blink of eye, and things which we wait and long for may or may not happen as desired.  It’s all about destiny and I am a strong believer of it.

Sometimes I feel life has been unkind to me.  There are non – fulfillments, frustrations, incompetency, disappointments and failures.

During my school days I never scored more than average marks, I had a wandering and a dreamy mind.

I experienced immense pain seeing both my parents seriously ill for a long- long time.  And it was quite debilitating.

It was an arduous task to get admission in a good college as I secured much ordinary marks.

There were times of acute financial crunch, where I failed to support my family.

I failed to know my heart and follow my dream.

The more I tried to move ahead the more I felt dragged down to the bottom. If I evaluate myself ten years down the line I was very insecure, impatient and full of anger. Fear, negative thoughts, pessimism made me a low and complex person. We all experience hardship, sometimes its due to our fault and sometimes others.

Even today I am the one with some complicated thought process but now I am much more in calm with myself. Failures, hardships have shaped me into a better person. Amidst all difficulties I always carry high hopes with faith in prayers. I am becoming more spiritual and strongly believe in positive affirmations which I have started practicing recently.

Failures and problems have taught me to have specific and clear intentions as vague intentions bring doubts.

Be in peace with failures. 

Never react unnecessarily when you are disturbed or angry. Calm down.

Face your fears; they won’t last a life time.

Never let dark clouds of negativity surround your life, the more you accumulate sad thoughts, and the more you will feel impregnated with them.

Free yourself of all mental blocks and constrictions.

Even if you fall twice or thrice, always step ahead with a stronger determination.

We all commit mistakes, accept them, and promise yourself to never repeat the wrong.

My thought may sound cliché but they actually work like a miracle. The point is how much we remember to implement, as an angry mind is also a devil’s workshop. We need to practice some self introspection and self counseling.

Though, I still feel and wish that certain episodes of my life should not have happened. But if not for them I would have strayed in a wrong path. They gave me a lesson to learn and helped me remained grounded. They were destined by almighty. 

Our life is what we make of it, develop and glorify it or leave it for others to pity. The choice is ours.